My lament...

I wish some how I could heal all the wounds
Which your tears left on this fragile heart
I wish you still would have been here with me
We could play the story again from the start...

I wish you would know how much I miss you
You were heart and my soul too
I lost the count of the nights I would cry
Life without you here is already hell...
I just wish even I would die

Among thousands alone I stand
Knowing that you are gone,knowing that nobody is gonna hold my hand...
Yet I don’t ask for anything,coz I know you love me ---
We were not destined to be together
I regret it,but yet im not sad

I don’t know if I grew up the right way
I wonder if you looked at me what would you say
But I do know that you are my idol, I only looked up to you
These million miles don’t mean anything to me
Coz I love you, n I wont let anything separate me from you...

Thousand days have passed away
But I stiil run away from the pain
As darkness spreads I still wait for you
Refusing to see reality,even though even your lips were blue...

there had to be an end,, time would never wait
but somethings are imposible to forget,,that is my fate
but how cannot i lament something that i lost
you may not realise it but you have gone away so far.......

Happy Valentines day...:))

see nights can be bad and life can be sad

but look back...she aint with you anymore..finally you can be glad

shes a gurl..by nature she just wanted you

she wanted you to be her superman...& now she wants some one new

it can never only be just the two of you..man shes 22

her friends are juggling two at a time...why would she only want you

now..im not saying all gals are like this..but 99% are...

the rest 1% are arabs..they should go and live in a forest some where far

the moment your eyes met she was desperate to date

her friends fixed her up with you..she told you it was fate

she acts all lovy dovy before you drop her right at her gate

one week and she starts to suffocate..its funny how often she changes her soul mate

"the problem isnt you..the problem is me

i wana concentrate on my career..i wana be free"

she comes up with crap that makes your mind wonder

should i continue with this..or am i like the soldier who needs to surrender

so you let go and pray that shes happy while you take all the scars

next day you see he with a new guy...but yeah he had a better car

they wana go to the beach..so they go on a long drive

while you take your sorry ass back to your room...& look at her pictures on hi5

at night you read those msgs..those lies...those i love you's

slowly you begin to realise may be she was ugly...may be you had nothing to lose

thats when the smile comes back..you are back in the game

one month and she will come back to you..lets face it...she aint got no shame!!!

a liar!!!

My love has risen from the ashes of lies
Where the broken dreams scream out..but those tears keep quiet
Dreams which were about you..in which you dared to smile
But dreams were my own imagination…my own tales of lies

Lost by my loss..i saw my world pass by..but I did try
I tried to grasp it..couldnt hold on..a broken heart is too strong a tide
The world meant nothing to me if only I could keep you by my side
But what if I broke that heart again…so I had to lie

My insecurities take over me the moment I go to sleep
They invade my dreams..they take you away from me
May be they knew you would leave if you knew what I was inside
This life is already cursed with my regrets..so I had to lie

I never wanted to hurt you..why would i??
Dead and tired from inside..but yet not a tear in your eye
Remember I had told you I will always be there for you
But what if I failed again…what if again I had to lie

This night it sings symphonies of its own
It cries out in its own bful way…alone it chooses to mourn
Why didnt I learn to cry..why do I feel dead inside
A smile I could fake…but your screams never lied…

I did love you…in my own psychic way as much as I could
Never had that perfect smile…but my darkness you understood
I don’t want the pain to be lifted…lets pray for no rain
Let the fire burn me inside again..in my graveyard of hate I saw her…n I watched her leave again…

Rain!!!

I see the rain falling through the window panes of a shop
i keep on staring at it..in my heart i wonder when would it stop
my mind starts to wonder as the rain drops fall on the ground
unlike the rain drops why do tears never make a sound??

Sitting there did something from which i always try and run away
it gave me time to think about my mistakes,,how i left when you wanted me to stay
all my mistakes..all my regrets they all come running back to me
in the rain i try and find a haven...all i find is a lonely tree

I had heard walking in the rain washed away the pain
but then why do i feel the same..why havent i learnt to feign
i cant tell if its rain or tears falling from my eyes onto my face
hadnt i been walking for eternity...yet i found myself in the same place

Each step i take my destination i find ten steps further
why is it so hard..just want to see her once..just want to talk to her
may be this time i will be a better man...promise this time i wont make you cry
anything for that smile of yours...in this lonely rain for you im ready to die

This poem is for you...every word i ever write
why do you never come in my dreams..why do every night i have to cry
loneliness wouldnt have been so bitter had you been there to temme its all gonna be alright
the rain cant blur the memories i have of you...to them im gonna hold on tight...

I have reached my destination..but all i find is a closed door
there are naked walls inside ready to haunt me..and naked are the floors...
in an empty house i just think about you even though thousand miles away are you
may be one day the rain will stop...one day the sky will be blue!!!

Love tore us apart....

You were like a moon that would glow in the dark deep nights

When the sun choose to betray…took away its mighty light

The stars glimmered at night, each with a story to share

Romeo lost his Juliet, I too lived in the same fear

Why does that flower stand alone..why is it so dead

Why does it feel so cold on your side of the bed

Your pillow shows yours tears,mine hides my nightmares

Coz love…this love would stay forever

Why is it raining so hard..is the sky crying again

Can I walk in the rain..forget the face that makes me insane

Theres a smile she wants me to feign…tell her its all in vain

Coz love..love will weep forever

A flicker of smile on my face..but hopelessness in the air

Should I not fear knowing the dead never shed a tear

Dark have been my dreams off late..like a creeping unknown terror

Knowing this love…this love would haunt me forever

The touch of her hand..not knowing if i should be there

I walked this path a long way…before I realized she was never with me there

Some dreams hurt you from inside..while others think you are fine

May be I would have started believing in god…had he made you mine

Your pain got us together..my love tore us apart!!!

Dark Messiah!!!

Broken since birth,i dwelled in the darkness from the start
supposed to be human,yet only despair could find the way to my heart,,
screaming & dreaming & crying i have been all alone
doomed in misery,,now i realise how long i have been on my own..

i want to know that you love me for true
dont want those eyes closed when i take off the mask infront of you,,
you have lost the feeling that you betrayed me
ugly though i am..that was just good enough for you to hate me...

shattered dreams and haunted nights..
that guilty conscience of mine..comes back every time i turn off the lights,,
they say i dont laugh enough..but my wounds see my smiles
the cries resonate throught the nights..they travel a 100 miles...

i kill myself..i kill so that i wll be free
i kill myself..i kill so that i wll no longer have to be me,,
might be hard to believe but its true
there are nights i cried coz i had no escape..may be i wanted to be you...

i wasnt always like this..it wasnt planned what i became
but that smiling face in the mirror..him & me were never the same,,
darkness got me through when there were no lights..its something i can never forsake
i am broken like a kid..so yeah the smiles are all fake...

a time comes when the pain refuses to increase further
i lost my paradise..those feet of my mother,,
these are the moments the heart feels crushed..you become miserable
but i never let you see what i had become..for you i was always dispensable...

there are reasons i am alone..why i am always at the very end of the line
reasons that i am tainted..i have got demons which are mine,,
wounds of mine tell a tale i am unable to tell
but they will all be at peace once they see me arrive at the gates of hell...

i dont want to be the angle of light..i am no christ
i am proud of what i have become...for i am The Dark Messiah!!